Judas’mother.

Judas’ mother was already very old when she visited the apostle John. She told him about the first time she looked at her son when she gave birth to him. The whole family rejoiced at his birth. He was bright and scholarly. After he betrayed Jesus and committed suicide, she read with horror the words of the Evangelist Matthew, “It would have been better for that man if he had not been born.” And she asked herself the painful question: why did she give birth to him?

When he was seventeen, he joined those who wanted to liberate Israel from Roman occupation. He waited impatiently for the Messiah. When he heard about Jesus, he immediately followed him. He was discouraged, but he was full of enthusiasm and hope. He believed that Jesus would restore Israel. Later, he became more and more sad, disillusioned, and said nothing. Jesus was not the Messiah he had imagined. His love for Jesus grew into hatred.

He was terrified because he was overwhelmed by immense despair. He was haunted by remorse like a rabid dog, and finally, he hanged himself. “I am Judas’ mother; I cannot cast him out of my heart. I would do it if love were in my head, but he is in my heart.” She finally said to John: “Speak to the mother of him whom my son has betrayed. With Jesus’ mother, maybe she will understand and forgive the mother of the betrayer, the mother who gave birth to the one who should not have been born.