Conversion is surrenderto the love of God

Like a frightened dog, after all the barking and running away at every
movement, he finally dares to come and be petted and fed – and ultimately, his fear breaks, and he believes us. That’s how we are towards God. Somehow, I’m reluctant to think that it’s real. We’re always afraid it’s just a sham. Although “we are called children of God” (1Jn 3:1), we are not really; we are so what we say. “There is only one Father, the heavenly Father” (Mt 23:9), but even that is not entirely true, and we certainly cannot count on God as if by our Father. God is, in fact, still Lord, and we still serve only as subjects and servants. We call Him that Father because He likes it that way, but otherwise, He is the Lord. If we don’t prove ourselves, He will cast us out and damn us. But otherwise, He is reluctant and not to be reckoned with much in life.
Faith, then, is as when we at last yield, as when a man at previous ventures out on a frozen lake and is astonished to find that the ice holds him and that he has not fallen in, and he shouts for joy and leaps and dances on the ice. So he feels the need to scream, sing, and dance, who has ventured onto the ice of the sonship of God and suddenly experienced that it is so! Here is born the desire and the need to evangelize – to share with all this tremendous discovery that it is so! We have entered and found that this is genuinely home! That God is Father! We are His children, His sons and daughters, and Christ,   our real brother! And we can live in this Home, in this Family!
And there, in God’s House, in this Family, in this unity and companionship of love, truly and finally lose notions of greatness, smallness, importance, lastness, meaning, and sense. All is one, all is One. God has become a man; man has become a god. It is the rest. In the arms of the Father. In the Family. At home. Where we belong. In our place. At last. To hell with Ego! What is needed in this House? Useless!